Life, its meaning, and happiness

Anticipating college has been really a tough process for me. Firstly, i have ALOT of time on my hands to kill. And secondly, with so much free time to spare, i have unintentionally given myself so much more time to think about life. Well, i know what many of you might think, "Jon, thinking about LIFE??? You got to be kiddin' me" Well, guess what... I'm not. But seriously though, I think of life and I think of how short it is, and yet ironically, how we always take our time HERE, on earth for granted. Relationships, education, and entertainment might make my life a hell of ride... but would it give meaning... I guess underneath all the blabber above, I feel like the only thing that can give me meaning in life is 'my purpose in life'... and GOD of course...

I think that religion is the only thing that keeps us humans from becoming insane. Don't get me wrong, religion has certainly caused some ups and downs in MY life... but it certainly has brought me stabilty... Anyways.. back to my purpose in life... (damn.. almost went into one of those religious sermons with all the holy jargon) I believe that NO one can know their purpose in life. Its just impossible...Forget what you see in the movies... forget what you have seen from your favourite soap opera.. forget what you hear on your favourite songs

Theres no way a person can say that he wants to become a doctor, or a basketball player, just because at ONE definitive moment, he discovers that it is his calling in life. Believe me when I say that not many people can tell if something is their calling in life, even after their coffin is closed, and dirt is poured onto it.

So, after thinking about it, I realised that I am where I started. Confused. But i guess, my advice would be live your life to the fullest, live your life so that you might not have any regrets, and then you will ultimately live your life as if you were a 5 year old kid in Disneyland, happy. I think basically, a life spent with good people will definitely be a good one, regardless of the circumstances.

Anyways, i'll leave you with the quote of the day,

Happiness should not be an ingredient in your life to make it complete and pure. Instead, happiness should be a RESULT of you leading a complete and pure life.

(a pastor in my church, whom i have forgotten, said it)

God
Family
Friends
Music

till next time... ciaozzz

i like a 'u busy?' VERY VERY much...

I talked about this girl last time. Whom, i kinda felt some sort of connection with. The feelings that she made me feel. However, whatever we have, its not official. Basically, she was my very own 'u busy?'. And to some extent, i was her 'u busy?'.

If u are asking what in the world is a 'u busy?', well i guess i'll obligely explain. In essence, it means a person whom u call, late at night, and ask the ultimate question.... 'u busy?' Then either one goes to the other's house to 'sleepover'. HAHAHA...

Well, my 'u busy?' is not as raunchy... its a MORE innocent version.. LOL... Anyway, we find ourselves calling each other in the middle of the night, usually startin with the words.... 'u busy?'
we spend time talking about intimate stuff, maybe going to each others place for a late movie, or planning a date for tmrw morning, or even slight cuddling. xD.. But the catch is, we're just 'u busy?'s.. Not a couple. Nothing more, nothing less. I've been doing this with her for about a month and a half. Maybe we're just really, really good friends. But to tell you the truth, i'm really exhausted, emotionally at least.

I think one of my main problems is that I like her very, very much. To a point where I wouldn't
mind her being my girl. We have so much in common, and she's a really great person to hang-out with. Alot of my friends say that I should just keep the relationship as it is. Because, they say that, whenever i take this relationship to the next step, we would end up hating each other because it would be out of the norm. Whatever that means...... Besides, we're both seeing other people. HAHA... Thats rite.. How much more screwed up can it be.

Thank goodness none of them know my blog.

Got to go... i wonder if she's busy... :)

Upadates

Sorry for not updating. I guess i could never find time blog. Well, ALOT has happened since the last time i blogged. World Stage was surely an event. That night in MOS that i will NEVER forget. Reunions with LONG lost friends.

Well in a nutshell, World Stage i had good fun. Got to see artists quite upclose. They ARE pretty normal. It is also that night dat i felt something dat i havent felt since high school. Up to now i still do not know wat it was. But i felt as if i had NOTHING to worry about in life. That there were NO expectations of me. That i had no responsibilities. It might have been due to the lyrics of AAR songs being played in the background, but somehow i felt FREE. lol..

Another update... I'm still very much single. HAHA.. maybe NOT so much.... but, officially single. I think...... i'm with her... unofficially dating. but, both of us dunno whether we should be in a relationship. kinda messed up i guess. maybe its because we're frm completely two different worlds.

DAMN...

why am i always in such complicated relationships...
till nxt time...